辣媽

ECFA 長灘島 c羅 京都 世博 

Liar
What the life I want? I has been looking for this answer to God, my ex and some self-help books, but I am still wondering. I thought either of those three sources are my backup, however, one of them I gave it away, one of them dumped me, the rest sounds like a plan but just hard to implement it.

I have been a liar recently. I lied to him and hope he still has sympthy and feeling about my misfortune. What the point I want us still to be connected with each other? The person doesn't love you and no any future plan works with you should just let him go. I know I'm too stubborn to listen to my friends' opinions. I'm walking on the wrong path which may lead me to die someday. I should wake up myself and stop doing wrongly. I'm acting and set wrong mind-set that our relationship will get better once he found out that he still loves me and can't live without me.
I stop reading Bible to avoid from the feeling of guilty. I'm afraid he would find out that I lied to him so many times, so many things. I play his trust and waste of my time to try hardly to prove our love is existed. My dear, please get out of this unmeaningful relationship, live in the moment, not past, not in the dream. I want someone to take me away, clear my head and cease my heart toward him.  The life just can't go on if the past kept sticking on my head.  Left the memory behind. I should aware and accept that the memory isn't valuable at all to my future. Promising doesn't mean anything when he changed. People come, people go.  Change is the way of life.